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Finally committed to killing the cat today and she's in the process of dying now. I managed to drag my feet long enough to get through "but is it really bad enough she'd be happier dead or am I being selfish for wanting this over with?" and move to the more definite "I am selfish for waiting much longer than I should have".

This will mean there's only one cat in the house, which makes me really anxious. I rely on having a cat to cry with after a cat dies. There's a friend of a friend with kittens who was asking about homes, but not sure where that is now, and also I think it may be some sort of purebred and I've had enough health issues from mutts, I don't need to tempt fate further.