Why I'm a Writer
Oct. 10th, 2006 12:59 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
farla"I had an exam yesterday. I did great, but I think I'm failing the course. The teacher was hinting my participation grade is going to be nonexistent."
"What? Really?"
"It's because I don't look attentive. I stare off into space to listen, or down at my desk. She doesn't believe I'm paying attention unless I'm watching her. Of course if I'm watching her I'm not paying attention. I mean I can understand why, but it's still annoying."
"Who's this, anyway? Girl or guy?"
"Girl. She's the depressed one."
"Ooh, really?"
"No, I mean like we're-not-supposed-to-be-bad-because-she's-depressed depressed."
"Ugh. She's really bad then?"
"That's what we've been told. She doesn't look too bad, but you know how people get when they're just kind of depressed? They get mad, at people who they think are causing trouble. Or not appreciating their effort. Like not paying attention. And it just builds."
"What a bitch."
I shrug. "I mean, I understand why. But it's still annoying."
"What? Really?"
"It's because I don't look attentive. I stare off into space to listen, or down at my desk. She doesn't believe I'm paying attention unless I'm watching her. Of course if I'm watching her I'm not paying attention. I mean I can understand why, but it's still annoying."
"Who's this, anyway? Girl or guy?"
"Girl. She's the depressed one."
"Ooh, really?"
"No, I mean like we're-not-supposed-to-be-bad-because-she's-depressed depressed."
"Ugh. She's really bad then?"
"That's what we've been told. She doesn't look too bad, but you know how people get when they're just kind of depressed? They get mad, at people who they think are causing trouble. Or not appreciating their effort. Like not paying attention. And it just builds."
"What a bitch."
I shrug. "I mean, I understand why. But it's still annoying."
